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Saturday Ambitions
I was just studying for my lecture on monday (field studies), while waiting for my frozen pizza (yes, I’m still sick – and alone) with my nose stuffed with toilet paper.. And my thoughts started to drift away from the ethnographic studies I was reading about. I realised that uptil now I haven’t had great ambitions with my studies. Well, yes – I have ambitions to do well, and to develop my field of knowledge and myself, but I haven’t had ambitions to go somewhere particular with my studies.
I don’t wish to be a great art theorist writing academic and critical articles on important subject on the matter, I don’t wish to work as a curator at a big museum and get my vision across, I don’t wish to be an artist using my background as an art historian. All these things would be fun, and they attract me too – who doesn’t want to be succesful in what they’re doing – but I do not have great ambitions to work my arse off to go somewhere particular. Does that mean anything to the way I work, and how much I’ll get out of my BA (maybe Masters next year)? It actually frightened me a bit.
I know people on my course who are enormously motivated and have great ambitions. They use their course actively, and their lives are fixed around the pillars that make their goals. And maybe it’s just because their ambition scare me, but they seem to get further than I, I just seem to be stuck in reverse.
I think my pizza is ready. I just needed to get this off of my chest.
Saturday When it all falls down.
Old work from 2008 © Kira Bang-Olsson
Boyfriend has been working non-stop this past week. Meeting at 6 or 7 am, and coming back past 9 pm. The icing on the cake must be the fact that he’s working today as well. Insane. Almost feels like I live alone. Can’t wait for tomorrow when we can spend the entire day just as we want. Which will probably be watching tvshows in bed. – Not bad!
Tonight we’re having our moving-in party – finally, and before that I have a photoshoot to do and a flat to finish up on. I wish the day had more hours..
Random thought: I miss photography. You could argue that I have quite a lot photography in my life right now (weddings, speaker shoots..), but I miss what really worked for me. Like the photos above. I say we vote for more hours in the day!
Wednesday Home again
My several weeks of being away can be explained with moving mess and no internet. I miss all my doings on the internet (and all the chores that follow on the internet as well). We’ve now moved into the new place, and apart from our lack of bed and workspace we’re basically in place. The flat is gorgeous. We’re still absolutely in love with it, and we feel like it’s our home already. I’m happy that we’ve finally found a place that we can call home for some years, and the homey feeling and comfort of having your own place is invaluable.
Last weekend I had an assignment for some of my friend who were getting married. Our aquaintance go back from good times and a circle of friends that I don’t see so much anymore. So being at their wedding was a great experience. The ceremony was beautiful (very hard to take photographs while tearing up, thank you very much) and meeting old friends is always a joy. It was a gorgeous, sunny day in the country.. And I’m spending time today on the photos that need to be sent to them later this week. Lovely people.
Last night I got to see P for the first time in months! Her baby bump is huge and she looks absolutely stunning. Fab night of P, L, T and Boyfriend and myself, candles, roast chicken, stories, laughing. That’s exactly what life should be all about. Love them to bits.
Monday In Limbo
It’s the final week of countdown – On saturday we’re moving into the new place early in the morning, and then it’s as good as over. We’re basically done with everything but the kitchen, we just need to approve the appartment, get the keys and go home for my dad’s birthday.
Even though it’s been nice to have a lot of time to pack (compared to the other times, especially last time..), it’s been too much time. Living around boxes (all our stuff is packed except from TV) and not having anything to do except from packing, is disgusting. But on a more positive note; yesterday we finally got rid of our old bed (which has really cranked up my allergies..) and some other stuff. Unknown amount of time sleeping on an air mattress, here we come!
Wish I could have a beautiful, serene Monday morning like this one.
Saturday Another
Tonight I feel like watching Lolita with a glass of white wine, in the evening heat. But there’s no time..
Last night Boyfriend’s dad came in with a ship from Iceland, and visited us for a couple of hours before leaving for the sea again. Cosy. But that being in the middle of the night, I’m absolutely ruined today.
But there’s a garage sale today in the suburb I live in, might check it out – because I can!
Tuesday Two Minds
Photo by Lina Scheynius.
My mini-”holiday” has now gotten to the stage where I have to decide when to go home. On one side I want to go home and get started on all the new plans and ideas that have been forming in my head, (and of course see Boyfriend for the first time in god knows how long), but on the other side… I really don’t want to go. It’s so nicely far away from the real world.
Wednesday Secrets
Enjoying homemade muesli and (shamefully) One Republic with All the right moves. It’s snowing a tiny bit, it’s nice.
Cleanecleaningcleans today.
Monday Exam
Damn it, I did it. I did what I was not supposed to do – get up too early. I’m basicly ready to go to uni and get this exam over with, but issue is that there’s 3 hrs until my exam begins.
So now I’m basicly just gonna walk around in circles, and probably leave the house way too early too. Bleh.
